It's been a long day. i woke unaware i had even drifted mouth dry and head still thick with sleep. As my sister burst in a few moments later i had to be up and ready to leave the house in five minutes, why was she being so loud? couldnt she tell me rather than yell me that i had to get ready? A flash of emotions had embedded in me as my head took no more i went into a dreamless sleep for somewhere in the region of one to two hours. that morning so close yet again so far now, so hard tov regain things were different.

The snails needed feeding i should have fed them yesturday, i forgot too. it was just gone six but i had just remembered so i plodded downstairs grabbing some cucumber. this hour is unknown to some people, as is the fact that this time of year at four oclock the sun is in full view, sunrise is already almost over. but anyway due to my catching a bus for school and my perminant phone alarm of six o'clock this hour is quite nice you become accustomed to the serinity of the quiet the cool yet warm morning.

this morning it was different i wated to feed them and go backto sleep i opened the tank oh no one is hibinating the do that if they dont have something they need i had topped the water up during the week and there was remain of food but it had been hot. i pulled the baby snail from its parents shell. suddenly a sickening relization came as i stared at the shell, my snail was not hibinating nd those holes in her shell and the strange white squishy looking lump should not have been there. her body was moist where she was curled into the shell or at least that was how i felt it. i run downstairs as though she was still alive the other parent in my hand i did not want him to be eaten too.

i gave the other water he responded not wanting it, so he was not thirsty. i gave him lettuce but he did not eat, he was not hungry. his body was not the most moist i sat him in a saucer e seemed happy i sill had the dead snail in my other hand holding her gently trying not to hurt her. i dipped my finger in the saucer and put it along her body in the hope she would react and wake up like they used to when they hibinated. but she did not, stupid child, stupid how could she be alive? Suddenly a pet dying made sense, death registered. i had never got it before how could there be an end? the end was i cant play with my snail anymore my sociable beautiful elegant snail. she was lying in the palm of my hand still sticky with the remains of the wet layer she had made on her skin. natures way had me find her shell in a state of sickness it made me feel discust the three oles in her shell. but the baby did not kill her i did, i should have remembered i should have kept the babies in one tank i should have checked on them more. but i did not and no matter how i review the memories how i sit and hold her she was still gone. i had had her more than a year i love her. i sat on my own quarter past six sobbing snail climbing on my right hand clio lying in tisues in my left. i didnt get it why did god, take my snail? why did she have to die?  I looked at her, she looked so different in less than a week both of their shells had become a funny colour a bright pure white, i dont why but after looking at her, i had to face it i wrapped her up in tissues and gently put her in the bin.

i took the other snail grabbing the small tank from upstairs it is not a suitable size for him but it is so i can monitor him in the week and make sure he is getting everything he needs. i played with him took him to the saucer again this time he drank, i ran my wet finger on his skin it was not as wet as it shold have been, hey go sticky if they are out of the tank too long. then i got some cucumber and he nibbeled that and then i bathed him, he likes that.

i thought of the little canibal it was not the first time snail eat snail had occured,i checked through out the day that the three remaining babies did not group one that kept going to join nother i moved. just in case. but as the morning contiued my family got up. i told my sister it was easier than i thought then my mum and then she told russel. it was ok, i had had a few hours to think about it. i caant do anything now as much as i want to. did she need more water? im sorry clio.

After this i made sure noz had a stock of everything he needed execpt cuttle fish bone i would get that for him when i went out. he was happy as he climbed the little tank nibbling when he felt like it. i was worried about his shell it had changed suddenly.  

everyone was in a mood mum was unhappy as she came downstairs unable to sleep, leanne was in a mood cos of russel beating her to the bathroom  russel was annoyed cos leanne was in a mood, so considering i was most happy despite circumstances, i dont like to show when im upset. mumwas ok and rusel lived up too sis well lol i just leave her alone.

i plodded about a bit then phoned squishy my guy he was still in bed i could not see him as he had to go to a birthday thing, but it was good to talk to him. as he yawned stretched and enjoyed the comfort of bed.

after i just plodded around went on the internet for a bit, danced to music and offered to pick leannes book up from the library. hence in the afternoon i could not be bothered. my step dad aka russel wasgoing to the pharmacy and i went with hi on his motor bike. for the first time a felt fear as we over took, it was not that he does not drive safely just the protection i wear does not fit so i dont really trust it. as the second of sudden fear passed i wished it would return as a rush of WWOOOOO came over me....not like im into speediness of anything. the pharmacy was shut we isited a shop and then went to the library.

i had an issue getting the card out of my purse but managed the library looked good its been done up, i can see my second home for he summer already lol. then i went home read wandered blindly around i was tired really tired so i got everythingready took a few bites out of my course work. broke two printers thankfully they were fixed simply and curled up on my bed. thermal blanket to my back i felt the warmth of my body heat cradle me. thne after sleep i went to my dads ate now im sitting here finally having put together all the pieces of today. a long day a hard da, i love you clio bye bye xxx